.

sharp

2009-03-02T13:59:00.000+08:00

so it appears.

my methods have never failed me.

boom.

2009-03-02T13:35:00.000+08:00

boom.

you crossed the line. you actually had the guts to cross the line. i can't believe how irrational you are. sorry but now you have to deal with me, and it won't be easy. suffer my consequence.

alarmed and pissed off signing off.

relief

2009-03-02T13:31:00.000+08:00

last saturday night's activity was something we all needed. we all need forgiveness and healing among ourselves. i was surprised at what feelings/hurts/ were opened up and all at the same time forgiven.

it was breathtaking. we all needed a respite a chance to grow deeper and closer to each other. and healing is the best way of growing a deeper relationship. so kudos my fellow youth ministers, im happy of how you guys are growing in ministry.

it was a breather for all of us.

p.s. kudos on attendance too. lets do an even better turnout next prayer meeting!

venting out

2009-02-17T07:28:00.000+08:00

i really feel that i need to vent out ALOT.

its that heavy and sinking feeling that you need to just scream out.

i need to vent out.

problem is. i dont know what i should be venting out.

so help me God.

or so i thought

2009-02-13T14:52:00.000+08:00

i thought i started this year right. but day after day i begin to doubt that.

alot has happened in the last 1 and half month, quite frustrating really.

i dont know what to do anymore.

don't get over your head.

2009-02-09T09:40:00.000+08:00

open messages to four completely different people.

one:

i base my assumptions and conclusions on real facts in case you didnt know. and before i spill out anything i have to say i make sure that i am accurate. i don't mean to accuse anyone nor make presumptions, i had to say that because the person involved was the one who felt it and he was asking to be understood. hence i called you attention

two:

i play the mind game better than most people, and you will not get around me. just so you know, i see every move. you have no right to judge me because you barely know me.

three:

it's my job to ask about your life. and if you can't open up yet, i wont force you too, but i know sooner or later you will crack. i will make you.

four:

don't make it hard for me to care for you.

five:

it's nice to see you guys are friends again.

it's not like you.

2009-02-07T11:45:00.000+08:00

it's not like you to disappear completely.
it's not like you to be down and lonely.
being indifferent isn't you.
iunno, i just really don't have a clue.
if it's something that you can't accept.
i hope you don't be filled with regret.

my two cents.

taken for granted

2009-01-19T14:57:00.000+08:00

i know there are many things in your life that are taken for granted..

question is...

am i one of them?

steps 2

2009-01-08T16:28:00.000+08:00

"taking a step backward doesn't mean
that i'm giving up, i'm just leaving you space."

step

2009-01-04T15:36:00.000+08:00

sometimes a step backward is better,
even if your aware you'll regret it.

summary of emotions part 2

2008-12-10T15:15:00.000+08:00

i want to be happy for you,
but i just can't cause i'll be unhappy for me.

summary of emotions part 1

2008-12-10T15:10:00.000+08:00

i may be laughing
but deep inside its hurting...

fools

2008-10-19T05:07:00.000+08:00

a wise man listens to what is said and what is not.
a fool only listens to what he wants to hear.

fools.

go figure.

duality

2008-10-01T18:27:00.000+08:00

it's both a blessing and a curse.
i hate the duality of it...

is that all i'd ever be?
go figure.

fall

2008-09-26T20:14:00.000+08:00

go figure.

hero

2008-09-26T17:44:00.000+08:00

go figure.

as i am

2008-09-26T14:16:00.000+08:00

i guess that's all i'll ever be..

go figure.

simple

2008-09-22T12:24:00.000+08:00

its that simple.
go figure.

Tas Trans

2008-09-18T18:58:00.000+08:00

(stolen from friday)

Love is like waiting for a bus. When the bus comes, you look at it and you say to yourself "eeee...so full.... cannot sit down, I'll wait for the next one."

So you let the bus go and waited for the second bus. Then the second bus came, you looked at it you said, "eeee...this bus is so old...so shabby!"

So you let the bus go and again, decided to wait for the next bus. After a while another bus came, it's not crowded, not old but you
said, "eeee...not air conditioned...better wait for the next one." So again you let the bus go and decided to wait for the next bus.

Then the sky started to get dark as it was getting late. You panicked and jumped immediately inside the next bus. It is not until much later that you found out that you had boarded the wrong bus! And you wasted your time and money just to get into the wrong one!

Even if an air-conditioned bus comes, you can't ensure that the air-conditioned bus won't break down or whether or not the air conditioner will be too cold for you.

Wanting to get what you want is not wrong. But itwouldn't hurt to give other people a chance. If you find that the "bus" doesn't suit you just press the red button and get off the bus! Hey, who said life is fair??? The best thing to do is be observant and open-minded. If it doesn't suit you, get off.

I'm sure you've had this experience before. You saw a bus coming (the bus you want of course). You flagged it but the driver acted as if he did not see you and zoomed passes you! It just
wasn't meant for you!

The bottom line is, being loved is like waiting for a bus you want. Getting on the bus and appreciating the bus by giving it a chance
depends totally on you. If you haven't made any choice, WALK!

Walking is like being single. The good side of it is you can still choose any bus you want...the rest who couldn't afford another ride
would just have to be content with the bus they rode on, ugly or not.

Also, sometimes it is better to choose a bus you are already familiar with rather than to gamble with a bus that is unfamiliar to you. But then again, life wouldn't be complete without the risks involved.

But there is one bus that I failed to tell you
about. - the Bus you do not have to wait for, the Bus that will stop on its own
and ask you if you wish to come inside, then take you for a joy ride for the
rest of your life.

one

2008-09-18T18:49:00.000+08:00

rule no. 1

i'd go the extra mile,
but you gotta meet me half way.
cause if i don't see you halfway,
i'll start walking another direction.

go figure.

why?

2008-09-17T22:07:00.000+08:00

why did you add me? after not hearing from you for years... meron ba tayong dapat pagusapan? curious lang ako...

oh yeah

2008-09-16T16:04:00.000+08:00

with what i had planned nung prayer meeting las tsaturday, you guys must think im crazy hehehe. too bad for those who missed kat and da's performance. i had that crazy idea going on in my head a couple days before. i simply want to see how they would react.

i apologize for the set-up, but i seriously just had to experiment and draw out the answers from you guys on a practical basis, making the learning more concrete (and exciting too!) hehe.

watch out for more.. you never know when i have another crazy idea.

yet another

2008-09-12T19:50:00.000+08:00

my reasons are my own.
don't confuse them with yours.

i was made for a different purpose.

nung bata ka ba....

2008-09-09T14:45:00.000+08:00

grabbed from tracy :)

[] kumakain ka ba ng aratilis?

[] nagpipitpit ng gumamela para gawing soapy bubbles na hihipan mo sa binilog na tanggkay ng walis tingting?

[] pinipilit ka ba matulog ng nanay mo pag hapon at di ka papayagan maglaro pag di ka natulog?

[] marunong ka magpatintero, saksak puso, langit lupa, teleber-teleber, luksong tinik?

[] malupit ka pag meron kang atari, family computer or nes?

[] alam mo ang silbi ng up, up, down, down, left, right, left, right, a, b, a, b, start?

[ ] may mga damit ka na U.S.E.D., Boy London, Cross Colors, Esprit, Blowing Bubbles at pag nakakakita ka ng Bench na damit eh naalala mo si Richard Gomez?

[] addict ka s rainbow brite, carebears, my little pony, thundercats, bioman, voltes v, mazinger z, daimos, he-man at marami pang cartoons na hindi pa translated sa tagalog?

[] nanonood ka ng shaider kasi nabobosohan mo si annie at type na type mo ang puting panty nya?

[] marunong ka mag wordstar at nakahawak ka na talaga ng 5.25 na floppy disk?

[] inaabangan mo lagi ang batibot at akala mo magkakatuluyan si kuya bodgie at ate sienna.

[] nung high school ka inaabangan mo lagi Beverly hills 90210 at Baywatc ?

[ ] gumagamit ka ng aquanet para pataasin ang bangs mo?

[ ] meron kang blouse na may padding kung babae ka at meron kang sapatos na mighty kid kung lalake ka?

[] nangongolekta ka ng paper stationaries at mahilig ka magpapirma sa slumbook mo para lang malaman mo kung sino ang crush ng type mo?

[ ] kilala mo si manang bola at ang sitsiritsit girls? e si luning-ning at luging-ging?

[ ] alam mo ibig sabihin ng time space warp at di mo makakalimutan ang time space warp chant?

[] inaabangan mo ang 4:30 dahil Ang TV na?

[] idol mo si McGyver at nanonood ka ng perfect strangers?

[ ] eto malupet... six digits lang ba ang phone number nyo dati?

[ ] nakakatawag ka pa sa pay phone ng 3 bentesingko lang ang dala?

[ ] cute pa si aiza seguerra sa eat bulaga at alam mo ang song na "eh kasi bata"?

[] inabutan mo ba na ang Magnolia Chocolait ay nasa glass bottle pa na ginagawang lalagyan ng tubig ng anay mo sa ref?

[] meron kang pencil case na maraming compartments na pinagyayabang mo sa mga kaklase mo?

[] noon mo pa hinahanap kung saan ang Goya Fun Factory?

[] alam mo lyrics ng "tinapang bangus" at "alagang-alaga namin si puti"?

[] alam mo ang kantang "gloria labandera"..lumusong sya sa tubig ang paa ay nabasa at ang "1, 2, 3, asawa ni marie"... hehehehehe?

[] sosyal ka pag may play-doh ka at lego... at nag-iipon ka ng G.I. Joe action figures o iba pang mukha ni barbie noon?

[] inabutan mo pa yung singkong korteng bulaklak at yung diyes na square?

[] lumaki kang bobo dahil ang akala mo nangangagat talaga ang alimango sa kantang tong-tong-tong...diba naninipit yun?

[ ] alam mo yung kwento ng pari na binigyan ng pera yung batang umakyat ng puno para bumili ng panty... and shempre, alam mo rin ba kung ano binigay nya sa nanay nung umakyat ng puno?

[] meron kang kabisadong kanta ni andrew e na alam mo hanggang ngayon.. aminin?

[] laging lampin ang sinasapin sa likod mo pag pinapawisan ka?

[] bumibili ka ng tarzan, texas at bazooka bubble gum... tira-tira, at yung kending bilog na sinawsaw sa asukal?

[ ] kinukupit mo pa at nanonood ka ng mga porno tapes ng tatay mo na nasa BETAMAX format pa at sanay ka tawagin ang porno as BOLD?

[] takot ka dumating ang year 2000 dahil sabi nla magugunaw daw ang mundo?

"KUNG ALAM MO LAHAT DITO LAGPAS KA NA NG 25 YEARS OLD... KAPAG HALOS LAHAT ALAM MO, NASA 23-25 KA. WAG KA NA MAG DENY.. TUMAWA KA NA LANG... DIBA .75 CENTAVOS PA LANG PAMASAHE SA JEEP NOON AT MAS MASARAP ANG MELLOW YELLOW KESA MOUNTAIN DEW? HAHAHAHAH."

middle

2008-09-05T17:21:00.000+08:00

it's hard to be in the middle. you tend to get caught up between two sides that can never seem to meet. there are thigns said and heard from another that cannot be revealed to the other. then you hear and say another thing from the second party. you end up knowing both sides, but can't spea for or against any of the sides. confusing right?

sometimes being caught in the middle leaves you no choice, no action. because if you do, things will go into chaos, you 'll end up siding with one party and betray the other. your hands are both tied.

thing is, i am always caught in the middle. there are times when i can do things, and there are times that i best keep myself shut. i do them for both party's best interests.

dream

2008-08-23T04:20:00.000+08:00

i just woke up from a silly dream.

two dreams in fact.

dream 1: i dreamt that i was packing up and dressing up to leave for Sydney, Australia with some World Youth Day pilgrims from the diocese. babalik daw kami ng australia para dalawin yung foster families namin. Funny thing is, we were about to check in, then someone sa check in said, "sir paso na po yung visa niyo..."

dream 2: i dreamt that i was in the middle of a noisy and disorganized youth ministry during practice. there were over 100 youth there, some of the faces which i do not recognize at all. i remmber shouting and telling them to sit down on the pews as i gavve another lecturing.. hahahaha. i even began with my favorite first liner for lectures "ano ba, naglolokohan ba tayo dito? ha?"

weird O.o

helpless

2008-08-18T15:00:00.000+08:00

can't help but feel so helpless right now.
i feel that there'es nothing i can do to remedy or help at this point.

i hate it. i could and would do something only if i could.
but its out of my hands.

at randwick

2008-08-04T05:56:00.000+08:00

the night we were sleeping out in the open field at randwick racecourse, the weather was pretty good but it was still freezing cold. i figured it was around 9 degrees celsius during the night and about 5 cold during the morning.

it was difficutl and dangerous to be sleeping under such conditions, especially if your caught unprepared. the sleepig bags and thermal blankets are enought to protect you from cold, but when the wind blows... the chill factor just goes right through your protective clothing.

when i decided to lie down and turn in i couldn't help but notice somethign strange yet dumbfounding sight... i stared up the sky surprised to find a full moon. nothing strange right? but what caught my eyes was there was a ring of light around the moon that night. i even asked one of my fellow pilgrims if he saw what i saw.. too bad we couldnt get a clear photo of it.

he asked me why? whats so special about the ring.. i said.. "it resembles an eye doesn't it?". he immediately agreed. it was like it was God's eye, watching on all of us pilgrims that night at randwick. making sure no one got hurt or got sick for sleeping under the cold winter night. it's as if he watches us sleep and made sure that nothing comes to harm. its an amazing and dumbfounding realization.

and before we turned in. i blurted out, "God is watching."

something to share

2008-07-31T09:27:00.000+08:00

during the days in the diocese this conversation transpired between me and an nominal catholic aussie.

person: why do you wanna see the pope?(in refernce to why i attended WYD 08)
me: what do you mean?
person: you came here to see the pope, right?
me: nah. it's not even about the pope. it's about God. seeing the pope is just one part of it.

i witness :)

point to ponder

2008-07-29T18:37:00.000+08:00

para sa lahat:

hindi tayo pumasok sa youth ministry para manligaw or magpaligaw. kung ang tanging dahil ng pagiging miyembro nyo ay dahil sa may nais kayong ligawan o nais niyo magpaligaw, kalimutan niyo na yan habang maaga pa, dahil may mga patakarang dapat sundin sa pakikibahagi sa ating mga kapatid sa youth ministry. may mga bagay na di pinahihintulutan at dapat pinagbibigay alam sa mga naaakda.

wag niyong ibalak itago. maraming sumubok magtago, nalaman at malalaman ko din. nahuli at mahuhuli ko din.

on another note:
nakakabobo tong case analysis. kainis.

iamawitness

2008-07-28T18:19:00.000+08:00

(rendered using adobe photoshop cs3 in 20 mins. orignal photo care of aina lasam)

it's already been 5 days since we came back from our pilgrimage and its just only now that i blog about my World Youth Day experience. i guess i needed the time to collate and gather all my thoughts..

i had my expectations and reservations about the entire pilgrimage, however the thirst and the drive to be part of this momentous occasion overwhelmed any hindrance. i have been frustrated once to join the pilgrimage. it was in 2005 where i had to back out of the trip to cologne due to being unable to support myself financially for it. and since then i had this unending desire to be part of it, it was a dream i had for quite so long. and with God's blessing, it became a reality.

the entire trip was a blessing, from being able to fund the trip entirely, come up with enough pocket money, being upgraded to business class on our trip to melbourne, at being homestayed the entire 2 week duration of the World Youth Day, and being able to become so tireless and hyper at all the activities and gatherings that came about.

its not a vacation as everyone would have thought. it was tiring and challenging. we almost went home late and we barely had 5 hours sleep since we had to wake early the following day to attend the necessary activities. and during the day we walked endlessly. and for someone who is overweight and flat-footed: walking was a NIGHTMARE. i even destroyed my favorite rubber shoes (the rubber sole went bye-bye) from all the walking. we went home everyday exhausted.

though exhausted most of the time, there was one thing that was always present. the smiles on our faces never faded. everyone was having the time of their lives, getting to know more of each other and more importantly more of thyself.

i can very well say that the WYD experience has taught me much about myself, about enduring and going past my comfort zone, extending the ends of my patience, being able to push myself beyond limits. i would have never known i could walk so long and endure so much pain, stress levels were through the roof. what kept me holding on was God.

during the 9km walk going to randwick i was bound to give up due to the exhaustion and the pain i felt on my feet. there was a time there that we were walking uphill for about 2 kilometers. torture. but in my head i kept saying "Lord, just get me there." and almost instantaneously i felt a rush of energy. the pain was gone and my stride regained its power. and minutes after there i was at randwick racecourse trying to find myself a space for my sleeping bag. the moment i saw Fr. Rodel i immediately told him of this experience, and he affirmed. i strongly believe that it was the Spirit of God that refreshed em that time. 9km is no easy task for someone like me and in the middle of exhaustion, He managed to pull me together. i am a witness to that.

another unforgettable experience waswhen we visited the World Youth Day cross and icon after having our confessions at the tent adjacent to it.. i literally fell to my knees in tears as i placed my hand on the cross. the moment i rached out somethign flowed through me unexplainable, kinilabutan ako nung mg oras na yun. i gues it was God saying i forgive you :)

some more of the amazing sights were when we were walking towards barangaroo (and even walking home from randwick), there was a time that all you can see in front of you was a sea of young people from all over the world, walking in liquid motion through the streets. and during the vigil when you look around all you see are candles lit up all over, a sea of candle light waving in the air. and overwhelming sight. and of course how could i forget the pope passing by so close, smiling and waving at us.

i guess we can say that we have come to witness that there is still hope for a Spiritual renewal in the world today. i have come to witness that there is still agreat love for God and for fellow catholics. its not impossible, God having touched more than 500,000 young people is enough to spark a revolution so sought after by the catholic church. all these great things happened in australia for 2 weeks. all of them overwhelming and miraculous and i am a witness to it.

to tito max and tita loren canta: our foster parents in melbourne and mama felcia and papa carmelo: our foster parents at sydney; i cannot thank you enough for your warm hospitality and generosity. you took care of us well and allowed us for a moment in time to be part of your family. i extend my appraciation and gratitude to you, i hope to see you all soon when i visit there :)

to my fellow pilgrims in the diocese of paranaque especially those i hung out with most often, i truly enjoyed your company, all the fun and laughter (buti wlang napikon), the memories will never ever fade. i miss you guys and hope to see you all soon. looking forward to many years of working with the best in the diocese!

it is nice to be back, having missed my family, my friends and the youth ministry. i never fel t so much loved from all of them since i came home, especially from the youth ministry. the moment i attended saturday night's worship and sunday's choir, they were jumping at me and said those kind words that would make any heart melt. you guys are the best!

in the end, the wyd experience and reaffirmed my being in ministry. i had my doubts before since alot of thigns were getting in conflict with my ministry. God made me realize i am needed in my parish and i am needed by the youth, and that i should share my experience to our community. and it is to them that i shall witness, it's my mission :)

i end my blog for no words can surmount the entire experience i've had in those 2 weeks. if only we could turn back time and relive the experience once again :)

"Nothing feels more fulfilling than being able to touch other people's lives with Christ's love through you."

Days in the Diocese

2008-07-13T06:13:00.000+08:00

its our fifth day here in melbourne australia. its been one busy and tiring week. the local parish had some very interesting programs for us and we toured downtown melbourne city twice!

we literally WALKED, WALKED, WALKED. it've aroud so much it makes me think i could live here the rest of my life. our foster family is great! they are a recently migrated filipino family from novaliches. and they have quite an interesting story to tell :D

its our last day here in melbourne, tomorrow we fly to sydney and gather as part of the hundreds of thousads of youth from all over the world.

signing off.

Act1v8!

2008-07-08T05:23:00.000+08:00

today is the big day . Lord guide and protect us.

enough

2008-07-03T17:23:00.000+08:00

ayoko na umasa...
sana matupad na maski eto lang...

so help me God.

Hacker xp

2008-07-02T05:30:00.000+08:00

Stolen from Aina (posted at the DYM Paranaque multiply site guestbook http://dopyouthministry.multiply.com)

July 1, 2008

Delegates reflect on Holy Spirit ahead of World Youth Day

MAKATI CITY, Philippines (UCAN): The Holy Spirit is a "hacker," a group of delegates to the World Youth Day 2008 (WYD08) celebration in Australia declared at a preparatory session.

Youth ministry workers from Paranaque diocese compared their experience of the Holy Spirit's movement in their life to someone breaking through computer and network security.

Once he penetrates, "we lose control of ourselves," are "re-programmed" and "we restart our lives," group members said.

The youth group from Paranaque, south of Manila, recited this declaration at the end of a reflection session on the first day of a preparatory gathering the Episcopal Commission on Youth (ECY) conducted June 28-29 for members of its delegation to Sydney.
Activities centered on the theme of the July 15-20 WYD08 celebration: "You will receive power when the Holy Spirit has come upon you; and you will be my witnesses" (Acts 1:8).

Pope John Paul II began the annual observance of WYD in 1984, and international celebrations have been held every two or three years since then.

About 500 WYD08 delegates, single Catholics 13-39 years old from various dioceses and groups, attended the ECY program in Makati City, southeast of Manila. They filled the open courtyard of Salesian-run Don Bosco Technical Institute with laughter, applause and music, and quiet moments of prayer.

Students, teachers, school personnel, youth ministry workers, young workers, seminarians, priests, nuns, and Church and NGO group members introduced one another. They viewed WYD slideshows and discussed in small groups about what it means to be Catholic.

The Paranaque diocese group was one of several that discussed the action of the Holy Spirit in their daily life and what "gifts of the spirit" each person can share with others. Some described encounters with the Spirit as "enlightenment," "feeling encouraged," or being "motivated" or "inspired."

Read the whole article from the Indian Catholic's website... http://www.theindiancatholic.com/report.asp?nid=10662

my personality?

2008-06-29T15:52:00.000+08:00

my personality?

2008-06-29T15:47:00.000+08:00

Do you guys agree? hahaha.

fifty.

2008-06-26T13:48:00.000+08:00

50 reasons that you might be a hardcore graphic designer.
there were originally 25 until twenty-five more are published. found this at the respective links:
http://www.bittbox.com/rants/25-reasons-you-might-be-a-hardcore-graphicweb-designer/
http://www.bittbox.com/rants/25-more-reasons-you-might-be-a-hardcore-graphicweb-designer/

*in no particular order

You’ve almost rear-ended the car in front of you because you were analyzing a font on a billboard.
You get pissed when a free Photoshop brush you download is less than 1000px in size.
You’d rather study the paisley pattern on your boyfriend/girlfriend’s shirt than listen to what he/she has to say.
You can use keyboard shortcuts at light speed, blindfolded, but you can’t type a paragraph of text without staring at the keyboard.
You’ve had “Software Nightmares,” when you’ve been working way too much.
You consider meals interruptions.
You’ve learned your lesson and stopped using the word “final” in any file name when saving.
You clean your keyboard more often than you wash your car.
You’ve intentionally given up trying to explain your projects to non-designers.
You see CMYK and RGB like Neo sees the Matrix.
You’d rather organize your desktop than your sock drawer.
When you heard that Adobe was acquiring Macromedia, you had a Design Orgasm.
When you look at Album art all you see are grunge Photoshop Brushes. (Then you see the album art a couple minutes later)
You’ve Photoshopped out a watermark for a comp or mock-up.
You’ve actually $paid for a font.
You’ve totally slaughtered a great design concept because the client thinks he/she knows best. (everyone thinks they are a designer)
The amount of words you’ve written with a sharpie labeling burned discs total more than the amount of words you’ve read in novels.
You’ve had to explain to a client that a layered file wasn’t part of the deal.
You’ve kept a ragged concert ticket just so you could scan it.
You’ve nicknamed the OSX spinning wheel. (and not affectionately)
You bookmark a resource more often than you have a fun night out on the town.
You’ve intentionally overbid a project because you can sniff out a bad client from a mile away.
You can’t go to a restaurant without secretly critiquing the menu design.
You have an amazingly huge font collection, and an amazingly short temper.
If you had a penny for every mouse click, you would have been a trillionaire 3 years ago.

the twentyfive more:

You’ve had a client that thought they knew more about design than you.
Your clients pay you for your professional expertise and skill, yet you’ve run into one of ‘those’ clients, that refuses to take the advice from the very person he/she is paying for advice (you).
You’ve had a client that insisted on using the font “Papyrus,” and you had to hold in your barf as you prepped it [the design] for printing.
You’ve requested a vector logo from a client, and instead, they email you a 72 dpi image they grabbed from a website.
You’ve used typography as a texture.
You don’t have a favorite font because you love “Typography.” Not Fonts. Choosing a favorite font would be like choosing a favorite child, it’s just wrong.
You collect as many free stuffs from the interwebs as you can on your hard drive, hoping that one day, that cool project will come along that you can actually use some cool shit on.
You’d rather have a free font than a free gallon of gas.
It’s hard to talk about frustrations at your job with a group of friends because they have no idea what “Vector” or “DPI” is, just to name a couple.
You’ve had a client ask you to “Make the logo bigger.”
You’ve had a client that insists on “filling up the space.”
You’ve learned to over-price web design projects because most clients are more picky about their websites than a high school girl picking out a prom dress.
You feel like you’re “On Call” half of the time because clients procrastinate so much.
You know keyboard shortcuts that require 4 fingers.
You’ve lost hours of work because an application crashed, and you had to start over from scratch because you were in the “zone” and forgot to save. Basically, you were having so much fun being creative that saving was the last thing on your mind at the time.
You’ve “Live-Traced” something.
You spend more hours per week looking at CSS showcase sites than you do at the gym.
The only thing that would make you happier than the demise of IE6 is world peace.
You’ve done everything but give up a body part to talk a client out of a “Flash Intro.” Yeah. I said it. Flash Intro. Sad, so so sad. (goes along with #2)
You have enough fonts on your hard drive to last you for: 1 font per day for about a decade, give or take a year or two.
You know, explicitly, what a “Flourish” is.
You worry about negative space as much as the content area.
You get phone calls from friends and family members on a regular, sometimes annoyingly-frequent basis, wanting your services for free or extremely cheap. (and the “portfolio” line makes you want to throw something across the room)
You’ve had a client that wants a website they can “update” on their own, but doesn’t know shit about websites.
You’re never more than 99% happy with your final product because you believe that EVERYTHING can be improved upon. (especially with those tight-deadline projects)

SYDNEY 2008

2008-06-26T08:39:00.000+08:00

Lord, iba ka talaga. hehe lagi mo nalang kami sinusurprise. the best ka talaga...

1. PARDO, Peter Eric D.
2. CASIO, Leah Carmel A.
3. GARCIA, Daryle Marie E.
4. CROOC, Dorcas M.
5. TALAVERA, Michelle R.
6. LOQUELLANO, Ma. Jo-Anne
7. BARISO, Mary Grace C.
8. BACUDIO, Wilbert A.
9. BOLOR, Tristan Jason DLR.
10. CALMA, Raymond I.
11. CANDELARIA, Jhoane Marie P.
12. CASTILLO, Lorelei S.
13. CRUZ, Gino Antonio C.
14. DE LEON , Mary Roselle D.
15. FABIC, Lourdes Angelica P.
16. GIRADO, Romelyn C.
17. LOGAN, Bernadette M.
18. LUNAR, Myla Theresa DC.
19. MACEDA, Jenina Anne Felice P.
20. MENDOZA, Edna Patricia P.
21. ORTONIO, Jehrson C.
22. RAMOS, Stephanie O.
23. SACABEN, Jay-Anne Marie I.
24. SEVILLA, Victor Emmanuel L.
25. VILLANUEVA, Therese Anne A.

SYDNEY HERE WE COME!

thank you for all those who prayed for us and with us in our pilgrimage. this is yet another hurdle we have just overcome and there are still hurdles up ahead in our pilgrimage. please do ontinue to lift up our intentions and our pilgrimage in your prayers.

thank you and God Bless!

New Layout

2008-06-19T03:31:00.000+08:00

i changed my layout.. i was getting tired of the old one. anyway whats new in this is i've found myself a "Creative Commons License" that should (take note "should") restrict unknown third party viewers from illegaly (without my permission) copying, dristributing or abusing my creative works. :D thus reserving my right as author/creator.

with that said i can go public again! :D soon di lang pangcontacts tong multiply.. Some of the contents will be made available for everyone :D

Warned

2008-06-18T08:51:00.000+08:00

don't say i haven't warned you. i fear that possibility na pigilan kayo dahl sa sobrang dami na ang nasa plato niyo. i have been there and believe me maraming beses na ako pinagquit, take it from me. oo na selfish ako xp.

prioritize. remember your commitment.

humbled

2008-06-14T19:44:00.000+08:00

to my fellow youth ministers in the diocese of parañaque youth ministry, to dop ym core (kuya peter, kuya paul, ate jai, kuya melvin), fr. rodyn dela torre, and the ever supportive Vicariate of San Antonio de Padua Youth Ministry; it is a great honor and priveledge to be able to share my skills for the diocesan youth ministry. i am truly elated at your warm appreciation during the launching, nakakataba ng puso :D. it truly is a humbling experience. it is with the Spirit's inspiration and yours as well that i am able to deliver a simple and yet meaningful symbol of our diocesean youth ministry.

para sa inyo yan! mabuhay ang Diocese of Paranaque Youth Ministry! Mabuhay si Kristo!

the best thing

2008-06-13T17:52:00.000+08:00

sometimes it isnt the right thing to do...
but its the best thing to do...

i fear not.

worship

2008-06-08T06:44:00.000+08:00

worship last night was amazing! everybody was shouting in praises, crying their hearts out to God, lifting their petitions. it was a beautiful and blessed moment.

we have been blessed. Thank you God for your gift. All for your greater glory.

should i want more?

2008-06-07T06:53:00.000+08:00

Well, it seems to me that the best relationships--the ones that last--are frequently the ones that are rooted in friendship. You know, one day you look at the person and you see something more than you did the night before. Like a switch has been flicked somewhere. And the person who was just a friend is... suddenly the only person you can ever imagine yourself with.
- Dana Scully, The X-Files

should i want more?
should i even begin to imagine?

Names i've been called before

2008-06-05T03:18:00.000+08:00

DA tagged me, i actully have this entry on my old blog on livejournal.. so i just better copy paste whats there. hehehe.

if you call me____, then you're_____.

GINSKI - you must beate jai! close friends.

GINOSKI - you must be ate jai when she's makulit.

G - you must be Karla reyes or Mau Bagsit

Kuya G - you must be people from PRYM, Alrenz Cabasa, Karl Gorospe, Min del fiero, Ayen Cabasa

GINS - you must be jecah ginete, cyndee icasas, jaisa candelaria, jhoan candelaria, kris afable

G4 - you must be doreen quiaoit or bettter known as "DQ"

GIO - Fr. anthony gonzales and Fr. Gio omale

KUYA GINO - siblings, sansan vazquez, the new members in prym, FBB

NI-CHAN - you must be sansan vazquez

GIN - you must be tis vertido

DUDE - you must be Maureen bagsit, regi vergara, maan kalalo, joe indefenzo

KAPATID NI GAYLE - people from PCJ.

CRUZ - you must be a bosconian

GIJOE - you must be my childhood friends.

REF - you must be beni cruz, raymund bariso, arden atienza, mary anne ingua or tapat
peeps.

KESONG PUTI - you must be an agustinian, haha

SHOTI - you must be monique cruz or shanez li

ANTONIO: you must be my dad or somebody who's trying to piss me off.

ONIG: you must be my dad or tito bong

TOTO: you must be nanay cita

ICE_GAC86: you must be jm villaflor and arnel cosme

MR. CRUZ: you must be my dad, again. or my professors.

GO GINO: you must be my little cousin Sergio James Cadiena(he couldn't say kuya before so
he'd say "GO!", but now he can)

ANTON - you must be people who are tired of using my first name, but too lazy to say my
entire second name.

Patrick - you must be my spongebob Sansan Vasquez

GIGI - you must be rochelle dizon

EVIL GUY - you must be diane dizon

GINO: the rest of the world.

amazing how people call me.

lessons from a turtle

2008-06-05T02:37:00.000+08:00

shall we allow ourselves a moment of bliss?
when the entire world seems to go so fast around you,
is it time to even slow down? maybe so..
but the turtle never went faster, its just got wiser.

my watch

2008-06-03T17:29:00.000+08:00

nobody gets lost.
not on my watch.

so help me God.

concerns

2008-06-02T08:18:00.000+08:00

it appears na dumadami gn "issues" between members. and i am worried about it. although according to a very good friend of mine. it's something healthy as well. these misunderstandings are there to make us even more closer to each other and also learn about ourselves.

note to my fellow youth: PRAY for each other. LOVE each other. Do not let this puny and minute misunderstandings or hurts discourage you from being in communion with everyone. Learn to admit and apologize, learn to let go and forgive. guys andito na tayo, we've gone this far. let us not let something like this destroy what we all have worked for.

This is just the beginning and more of this can happen again. We just simply have to overcome it.

i hate it.

2008-06-01T16:46:00.000+08:00

i hate being the villain, the contra-bida...
but i have to for your own sakes...

"its your call now, nasabi ko na dapat kong sabihin"

no words are enough

2008-05-31T06:37:00.000+08:00

i am really amazed and dumbfounded by the way HE works. Lord, wala ako masabi. hahaha.

moreso, i'm really proud of my youth last night! they all pulled through! congrats guys, i'm really proud of you guys. WALA NANG TATALO PA SA INYO! you all shone last night and God was in you.

no words are enought to thank Him and my youth ministry!

Parish of the Resurrection Youth Ministry all the way! :D

simple lang.

2008-05-30T21:02:00.000+08:00

i am happy. i could have done better, but i couldn't ask for more. thanks to Him. everything was just right.

miracles were made today. and i am a witness!

for the sake of it. answer please hahaha.

2008-05-28T08:27:00.000+08:00

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:

1. I died:

2. I kissed you:

3. I lived next door to you:

4. I started smoking:

5. I stole something:

6. I was hospitalized:

7. I ran away from home:

8. I got into a fight and you weren't there:

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:

9. Personality:

10. Eyes:

11. Hair:

12. Family:

WOULD YOU:

13. Be my friend?

14. Keep a secret if I told you one?

15. Hold my hand?

16. Take a bullet for me?

17. Keep in touch?

18. Try and solve my problems?

19. Love me?

20. Date me?

21. Sing with me?

HAVE YOU EVER:

22. Lied to make me feel better?

23. Wanted to kiss me?

24. Wanted to kill me?

25. Broke my heart?

26. Kept something important from me?

27. Thought I was unbearably annoying?

MORE:

28. Who are you?

29. Are we friends?

30. When and how did we meet?

31. Describe me in one word:

32. What was your first impression?

33. Do you still think that way about me now?

34. What reminds you of me?

35. If you could give me anything what would it be?

36. How well do you know me?

37. When's the last time you saw me?

38. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?

39. Are you gonna put this on yours to see what I say about you?

40. Really?

Letting Go of Past Hurts

2008-05-22T20:31:00.000+08:00

How to Let Go of Past Hurts
by Rick Warren

Dear friends, never avenge yourselves. Leave that to God. For it is written, “I will take vengeance; I will repay those who deserve it,” says the Lord. Romans 12:19 (NLT)

*** *** *** ***

First, relinquish your right to get even. Leave that up to God; he’ll take care of it (Romans 12:19). I’ve been married for thirty years and I’m ashamed to say, I’ve hurt my wife many times. But after thirty years, we’re still together and more in love than ever before. Why? Because it’s not hurt that destroys relationships, it’s an unwillingness to forgive. We’re human; we’re going to hurt each other. But the question is, will you give up your right to get even? And will you offer forgiveness? When you do, any hurt can be overcome.

Second, respond to evil with good. How can you tell when you’ve released somebody, when you’ve completely forgiven them? You can actually pray for God to bless the person who hurt you. The Bible says we should overcome evil with good, praying for those who hurt us (Romans 12:21; Matthew 5:44).

Third, repeat these steps as long as necessary. Forgiveness is rarely a one-time shot. When somebody hurts you, we tent to think about it over and over and over. How often do you have to forgive the person? The Apostle Peter once asked Jesus, “‘Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?’ Jesus answered, ‘I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times’” (Mathew 18:21-22 NIV). In other words, it needs to be continual, limitless; we shouldn’t even try to count the times we forgive, just as Jesus doesn’t count the times he forgives us.

Fourth, begin telling others about God’s forgiveness. The Bible says, “For God was in Christ, reconciling the world to himself, no longer counting people’s sins against them. This is the wonderful message he has given us to tell others. We are Christ’s ambassadors, and God is using us to speak to you. We urge you, as though Christ himself were here pleading with you, “Be reconciled to God!” (2 Corinthians 5:19-20 NLT).

© 2008 Purpose Driven Life. All rights reserved.

MUST READ

2008-05-14T17:03:00.000+08:00

A man was busy throwing washed up clams back in the sea. A passerby, who saw his charitable activity, couldn’t help but ask, “Excuse me sir. May I ask, why you bother at all? Could you possibly think that you can make a difference by throwing a handful of clams back at the sea, while there are plenty of other clams being washed ashore?”

The man merely smiled, and threw another clam from that shoreline. Grinning at the passerby, all he said was, “Made a difference with that one.”

II.

A little girl just saw a TV program about African children suffering from Malaria. Moved by what she saw, the girl resolved to collect a quarter from each of her neighbors. After a few days, the little girl squealed happily. “Mommy, mommy I reached $10!” Her mother smiled sadly at her and replied. “That’s good dear. But $10 cannot possibly save the whole of Africa.”

Confused, the little girl said, “But mommy. $10 is the cost of a single saving kit (note: pills, med kit, etc.). I’ve already saved one!”

Ask yourselves,

How can a variety show possibly change all the BF Youth and turn them back to God?

Well, the youth variety show can’t do it alone. It will take A LOT of work.

But for every person you inspire, for every youth that you share the joy with, it doesn’t really matter if you can convince only a handful of youth to turn back to god. For their lives, you already made a huge difference.

Think about it. Why not share your talents to inspire others?

We’re just a call/text/IM away! Good night and God bless.

REPOST THIS AT YOUR BLOG. ty

My cup overflows (song)

2008-05-11T15:11:00.000+08:00

I am crying out in to the planes of this lonely dessert
All alone and everything is as hot as deadly flames
As I walk on the path to nowhere, I am thinking of where to run or hide
Because everywhere I look everything’s still the same

Refrain
But still I see hope and you’ve strengthen up my spirit
You made me bear fruit to a path of thorns and stones

Chorus
My cup overflows of your loving presence
You brighten up the darkness of my mind
And now I commit again back to you, O Lord
So let Your will be done through me

I am the withered tree that’s supposed to be cut away
But you showed mercy and gave me chance to grow
You trimmed and disposed all of those useless branches
And pruned all that I have made and bore

Refrain
How great are Your works, and how deep are Your thoughts
I sing for joy at the work of Your hands, Hallelujah

Chorus

Bridge:
Let them be, do not stop the children from coming to me
For the kingdom of heaven belongs to people such as these!

Chorus

Primera

2008-05-07T21:59:00.000+08:00

stolen form alrenz.

Okay this is called FIRST REACTIONS QUIZ. You have to type the 1ST thing that comes to mind whenever you hear these 40 words. You can't think and go back and change your answers.

1. Beer:
CHILLAX!!!

2. Anorexic:
at my weight i think i should be hahaha

3. Super Hero:
*sings.."here he comes to save the day!!!"

4. Your Last Ex:
:(

5. Power Rangers:
Nostalgia. hehehe.

6. Plastic Surgery:
for the insecure

Where did 7 go?
don't ask me i didn't make this quiz.

8. Cartoons:
Always fun

9. The President:
Greedy

10. Tupperware:
Plastic.

11. Florida:
Miami beach :D

12. Santa
Banana (Mrs. Natividad, grade 5 reading and phonetics teacher CSA)
13. Halloween:
JAck o Lantern!

14. Bon Jovi:
very nice songs

15. Grammar:
Spelling (as in spelling & grammar)

16. Myspace:
is for losers

17. Failure:
is never an option. :D

18. Marriage:
soon :D

19. Paris Hilton:
stupid.

20. Brunettes:
wew.

21. Redheads:
hate red hair

22. Blondes:
dumb :D

23. Pass the time:
so slow...

24. One night stands:
snicker... snicker...

25. Donald Trump:
big old oaf.

26. Neverland:
Peter Pan

27. Pixie Stix:
ewan.

28. Vanilla ice cream:
mmmmm...

29. Port-a-Potties:
disgusting.

30. High school:
hormones! hahahahaha

31. Pajamas:
getting sleepy

32. Wood:
Trees

33. Wet Sock:
Laundry

34. Alcohol:
CHILLAX!

36. The Bible:
best seller!

37. Heartache:
hypertension

38. Time:
is slow....

39. Life:
is an everwingind road.

40. Blood:
thicker than water.

out of boredom part 1

2008-05-07T21:21:00.000+08:00
How this works: You look at your guestbook and then take the names of the last twelve people who have written on your wall. If they've posted more than once, only use their name once and skip to the next person.

1. Karl Gorospe
2. Kat Garde
3. Mel Dela Pena
4. Bro. Jimboy Mayo
5. Jeeka Pascual
6. Chrsitian Mortell
7. Rochelle Dizon
8. Arden Atienza
9. Pat Mallari
10. Ate Lara
11. Tsard Chua
12. Nia Verayo

Then you answer the questions:

1. Have you ever kissed number 7?
- yea. beso :D

2. What's the best memory you have of 9?
- Chillax hehehe

3. When's the next time you're gonna see 4?
- Bro jomboy mayo.. gee i dunno maybe soon :D

4. Is number 8 pretty?
- whatever hahaha

5. What was your first impression of number 10?
- mataray! hahahaha. peace ate lara!

6. How did you meet 3?
- youth ministry. sumali nalang sya bigla :D

7. Is 11 your best friend?
- not really.

8. Have you seen 5 in the last month?
- yup. just last saturday

9. Do you think 2 has a crush on you?
- YES. hahahaha. jokes kat!

10. When was the last time you saw 12?
- just a while ago. around 8pm at jolibee hahahaha.

11. Have you ever been to 1's house?
- Nope. karl tambay tayo sa inyo haha.

12. When's the next time you'll see 10?
- this saturday. :D

13. Are you really close to 3?
- YUP. very.

14. Have you ever been to the movies with 4?
- Nope. hehe

15. Have you ever gotten in trouble with 2?
- ugh yeah. pier one? hahaha

16. Would you ever go out with number 7?
- nope hahaha.

17. What do you and number 4 talk about the most?
- God :D

18. Do you even know 9?
- but of course.

19. Would you give number 3 a hug?
- sure. im sure she would need one quite some time now.

20. Are you in love with number 12?
- nah.

21. Do you know a secret about number 8?
- yeah hahaha. sikretong malupit!

22. Describe the relationship between number 9 and number 5?
- they don't know each other. :) but they could make a cute couple :D haha

23. What is the best thing about your friendship with number 1?
- karl ano nga ba?

24. Have you ever danced with number 7?
- animations! hahaha

25. How long have you known number 12?
- 2 years.

26. Have you ever been in a fight with number 8?
- not yet.

27. Would 2 and 4 make a good couple?
- Bro. Jimboy? no no no no haha.

28. Has number 1 ever met your mother?
- Nope

29. How did you meet number 11?
- Alyansang Tapat sa Lasallista

30. Will you go to number 6's wedding?
- most likely yea.

31. What would happen if you put 10 and 11 in a room together?
- they'll take possesion of one corner and sit there i guess. they dont know each other.

32. Do you live close to 7?
- yeah slightly

33. What is number 2's favorite food?
- hmm.. im not sure..

34. Out of your top 12, which one would you say is the funniest?
- haha im definite pat mallari

36. If you could change one thing about number 7, what would it be?
- lower the volume of her voice! hahahaha. peace rochelle!

37. Say something nice about number 11.
- a great great artist. :D

38. Which one lives the farthest away?
- Bro. Jimboy Mayo. Lipa City Batangas.. goodluck diba? haha

39. Which one do you hang out with the most?
- lately? Kat. :D

40. Who is the loudest?
- ROCHELLE im positive. :D NO,IM DEFINITE. :D

41. What kind of car does number 12 have?
- an invisible one.

42. Have you traveled anywhere with number 8?
- nope

43. If you gave number 5 $1000 tonight, what would they spend it on?
- a high end computer definitely. the kind that has 4GB ram, one terabyte of disk space and is QUAD CORE.

another tag

2008-05-05T12:43:00.000+08:00
1. Define your style.
Mixed. i love vectors though. and i mor often than not vector alot :D

2. What got you into art?
Hm... honestly iunno, i just ahd a knack for drawing and visualizing things i guess. i remember i never had a clean school notebook. if you would check the back pages they woudl be full of doodles xp even in college. i remember being scolded by our teacher for drawing on the back of the notebook and even some of my books!

3. Do you need to be in a certain mood in order to draw?
yes. but what mood. i dunno.

4. What do you often draw?
still life xp. people. whatnot.

5. What do you use for sketching?
number 2 mongol pencil or my g-tech .4

6. What do you use for coloring?
oil pastels and a brush. coloring pencils. photoshop

7. What programs do you use when doing digital art?
Adobe Photoshop or Adobe Illustrator. Corel sucks.

8. How long does a piece take?
It really depends usually around 2 - 10 hours depending on the amount of detail.

9. Who do you look up to?
Vincent Van Gogh. :D

10. Do you like gravy?
how is this related to art? yeah KFC gravy.

11. How about sandwiches?
oooooooh yeaaaaaa.. hmm a tuna wasabi sandwhich would be good right about now.

12. Lastly, Can you draw something for me?
IM TOO LAZY

13. Who do you tag?
whomever.

i've been tagged

2008-05-04T18:47:00.000+08:00

Although im not as bored as the person who tagged me.. sige na pagbigyan na natin.

The Rules:

1. Each starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.

2. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their ten things and post these rules.

3. At the end of your blog, you need to choose ten people to get tagged and list their names.

4. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they're tagged, and to read your blog.
So here it goes....

1. i read people alot. i see them once and i can figure out who they are and how they are as a person. i can easily draw out assumptions which turn out to be completely true about them. and people get shocked as to how i know thigns about them. too much that i can be a con-artist.

2. i love to eat sushi/sashimi. i can eat it breakfast, lunch or dinner for the restof my life and not complain about it. too bad i seldom have the money to buy me a platter.

3. im secretive. i only expose 10% of myself.

4. i make alot of mental reservations and no detail comes to pass, i keep most things to myself.

5. i have a keen sense of sight and hearing which allows me to observe keenly.

6. if i tease and ridicule you alot it means your ok with me, if i dont't (when i ignore you) somethings not right anymore. and you better start panicking.

7. i have a favorite pillow which i can't sleep without (i have trouble sleeping without it). the cool thing about it is that pillow is older than me and belonged to my dad.

8. i love to drink. im not alcoholic, but i always look forward to the chillax sessions. i mix concoctions and i have never failed anyone with my drinks yet.

9. i am a computer game addict :D

10. i get bored easily thats why i enjoy conversations, i also get easily bored with things thats why i always try something new.

TAG:
WHOEVER. im too lazy to name someone.

overflowing still

2008-05-01T23:59:00.000+08:00
it still daunts me.. the feeling since first day of the retreat hasnt left me.. NO HANGOVERS. just that the energy is there, the passion is there. i can say i've accomplished plenty of tasks in the past days.. focused and inspired :D

i'll have to say that this is God saying, "you can do much more... so much more...". i recall something shouted in tongues while i was in tacloban, leyte (oo na) by someone in the crowd. and in less than two seconds another communtiy member interpreted it saying... "Go I have sent you!"

it daunted me. i was at the point of giving up my ministry and setting it aside.. i have struggeled far and well fro career and studies then.. yet what i believed (MY parents believed) was holding me back was now reaffirmed by God. so confusion sets in.

i couldnt have come in a more confusing time. and true enough in the past two months i have been lagging... i have not acted or decide in my best form. it was like i was becoming "Martha". i wasnt the best i could be..

yet God works miracles that in less than a day, he can refresh a soul :D refreshed so much that till today i still overflow... i can very well say i know what God wants to happen and what i want to happen.

lastly, it was a humbling experience to know that you've changed someone elses life becasue of the simplest yet meaningful things you do. thank you for letting me know that i've made a difference.. at least i have accomplished part of my ministry, and to stop right now is ridiculous.

"i have been called, and i chose to follow"

my cup overflows

2008-04-28T09:19:00.000+08:00
im only posting now since i had to many things going on yesterday and i couldn't organize my thoughts before writing on this blog.

i can very well imagine how much good this retreat has brought me and the ministry. it was a refreshing experience and i believe God in all His glory has pulled me back again.

the thing that struck me the most was how powerful prayer can be. and now i agree with what Bro. Harvey Campos from Ligaya ng Panginoon once said..

"sometimes when we plan for a great event or when we prepare for something we tend to dwell on the minute details, immerse ourselves in planning, strategizing and overwork ourselves to fit the most perfect details.. In a span of one hour meeting, how long do you spend for prayer? how long do you psend for the actual meeting itself? less time for prayer and more time for the meeting right?

there's the issue, prayer has become something like a requirement a prerequisite for planning, a passing phase... we ought to lern to pray more and plan less. for when we pray more, planning becomes so much of an easy task, because the greatest team member has arrived due to prayer, and that's the Holy Spirit."

in all the trivial and trying times during the retreat, we prayed. and we believed. and it was a scary yet astonishing to see everything falling into place...and in that point i realized how powerful my prayer is.

furthermore, i taught me to let go... it's a sickness, its my sickness that i tend to want to go and get control of everything, even if i don't have too and even if i can't. realizing that i just place limits on myself. the art of letting go... letting God do His work through me... and allowing Hime to take charge of the situation..

i felt that after that retreat i've had another outpouring of the Spirit. and during that worship, i felt i couldn't contain myself and i felt i was about to explode inside. it was an overwhelming feeling...

i hope this experience does somethign good for the youth ministry. i have to say im really proud of them during the retreat, they tried and never gave up. and much to my amazement, all of them SHONE through. it's a miracle God worked over 3 days.

this marks the beginning of a new journey where we the Parish of the Resurrectoin Youth Ministry grow more than just being a ministry and with the help of God transform ourselves into a community.

this is God's dream. and i choose to make it my own.

step one. let the transformation begin.

ithe idea of two communities coming as one is a long dream between the core of PCJ and Resu youth. among me, patti, jai and chino it's alrady been three years where the toughts of a "BF Youth" began to be said... it was a dream long awaited for and today this dream is being realized, its beginning to unfold..

who knows, the two communtiies might merge? merge into one and begin its mission. transformtion of BF Youth into a life closer to God. it's a possiblity. it is a dream.

this is also God's dream.. and i choose to make it my own as well.

step one. coming together... let it unfold..

until things are realized, i pray and dream. and with my cup overflowing... nothign can get in the way now.

my cup overflows...

Naglaba ako sa bahay ng kaaway ko para mabenta ang nanay ni Noli de Castro

2008-04-07T15:56:00.000+08:00

Wahahahaha, ang benta! Thanks Angel. :P

The (dominant) color of the underwear you are wearing right now:

Red - Nagpunta ako
Orange - Naligo ako
Yellow - Nagsuka ako
Green - Nagshopping ako
Blue - Nagwala ako
Pink - Napalaboy-laboy ako
Violet/Purple - Namalengke ako
White - Naglaba ako
Brown - Gumulong-gulong ako
Black - Umiyak ako
Others - Tumae ako

The time you're answering this thing (regardless of AM/PM):

1:00 onwards - sa divisoria
2:00 " - sa Disneyland
3:00 " - sa kwarto ko
4:00 " - sa Quezon City
5:00 " - sa harap ng bahay mo
6:00 " - sa tindahan ni Aling Nena
7:00 " - sa bahay ni big brother
8:00 " - sa bahay ng kaaway ko
9:00 " - sa harap ng crush ko
10:00 " - sa Malacanang
11:00 " - sa Italy
12:00 " - sa taas ng bundok

Your mother's birthmonth

January - para manakaw ko
February - para makita ko
March - para matusok ko
April - para maamoy ko
May - para mabili ko
June - para matapakan ko
July - para makagat ko
August - para sunugin
September - para mabenta
October - para itago
November - para mapalanunan ko
December - para maramdaman ko

The last number in your mobile number:

0 - ang t-shirt
1 - ang nanay
2 - ang alagang aso
3 - ang ilong
4 - ang pwet
5 - ang cellphone
6 - ang panyo
7 - ang underwear
8 - ang girlfriend/boyfriend
9 - ang kili kili

First letter of your e-mail address:

A - ng lola ko
B - ni Bamboo
C - ni Fergie
D - ni Harry Potter
E - ng kapatid ko
F - ni Mickey Mouse
G - ng girlfriend/boyfriend ko
H - ng kapitbahay ko
I- Noli De Castro
J - ni Michael Jackson
K - ni Paula Abdul
L - ng crush ko
M - ni Professor Utonium
N - ng teacher ko sa Math
O - ni Tiger Woods
P - ni Rico Blanco
Q - ni Bentong
R - ni Brad Pitt
S - ng classmate kong baduy
T - ng manliligaw kong malaki ang butas ng ilong
U - ni Madonna
V - ng kapatid ko
W - ni Winnie the Pooh
X - ng boyfriend/girlfriend ng ex ko
Y - ni Emily the Strange
Z - ng kakambal kong bakla

don't you get it?

2008-04-06T19:15:00.000+08:00

YOU disappoint me. and im SICK and TIRED of being disappointed.
time to PICK UP or LET GO. your call.

"there's a will, there's a way..."
"don't do it for me... sympathy won't work"

Hell of a week

2008-04-06T16:03:00.000+08:00
Hell of a week to go..

looks like i wont be going to the states this summer afterall? or yet?

looking forward to a busy summer. i don't thik i'd have time to go to the beach. sigh...

monothematic delusion

2008-03-28T19:41:00.000+08:00

Stolen from Jeeka

Instructions:

1. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Special:Random
The first article title on the page is the name of your band.

2. http://www.quotationspage.com/random.php3
The last four words of the very last quote is the title of your album.

3. http://www.flickr.com/explore/interesting/7days
The third picture, no matter what it is, will be your album cover.

4. Use a graphics program of your choice to throw them together, and post the result as a comment in this post. Also, pass it along in your own journal because it's more amusing that way.

And this would be my first album!

Name : Monohematic Delusion
Album: I think it's me

it's an alternative rock band :D

FOR CONTACTS ONLY

2008-03-27T17:11:00.000+08:00
due to leaks in privacy and identity theft being experienced by numerous people around me. i've decided to keep my multiply strictly for contacts only.

that send, i recommend you do as well. thanks and God Bless!

think twice.

2008-03-24T16:25:00.000+08:00
think twice before you cross.

do not be so quick as to conclude what you percieve. it is far deeper than anyone can understand moreso you. i assure you you still know nothing about me.

do not make me make you lose your face.

for accounting majors

2008-03-19T17:44:00.000+08:00
got his from Maica... akalain mo pati to may standard. i wonder how this is audtied?

Derecognition and Disclosure requirements need to be shown each year.

IAS - 69

IAS 69 ::::Accounting for Girl Friends

Objective:
The objective of IAS 69 is to prescribe the accounting treatment for
Girlfriends. The principal issues are the timing of recognition of a
female friend as a girl friend, the no of days the relationship can be
carried on and any write down in this romantic relationship. It also
provides guidance on the methods to be employed to make GF.

Scope:
This IAS applies to all GF?s except those whose father, brother,
ex-boyfriends or prospective boyfriends
-work in police, army, intelligence agencies or political organization
or
-6+ feet tall, have muscular body and knows kung fu, judo or any other
marshal art

Definitions:
The following terms are used in this Standard with the meanings
specified:

LOVE is a serious mental disease, mostly found in old Indian movies,
dramas and Urdu literature.

FLIRTING is the modern form of love, this disease came from Hollywood
movies, new Indian movies, internet, mobile phones, and English
literature.

MARRIAGE is a long term liability as a result of PAST events that is
expected to be settled by increasing the population, decreasing the
health and money.

GIRL FRIEND is a current asset as a result of past efforts that is
probable to generate future dates, physical contact and gifts. If not
properly handled may become long-term liability i.e. wife.

BOYFRIEND-SPECIFIC VALUE is the present value of the future dates that a
boyfriend expects to realize from continuing use of the GF over its
useful life and from its disposal to his another friend at the end of
the flirting term

FLIRTING TERM is the higher of the following:

-from your first conversation till the time the GF father catches you

-from the time of your first date till your GF get married with another
person ,in which case she will become your ex-GF.

-from the time of your first date till you get married with your GF,
afterward it will become a suffering term.

Recognition:
A girl shall be recognized as a girl friend if, and only if:
(a) it is probable that future physical benefits associated with the
girlfriend will flow to the boyfriend and
(b) the expenditures to be incurred (eg in respect of gifts, cards
etc
) can be measured reliably.

Female Cousins, younger sisters, and other female friends associated
with the girlfriend should not be recognized. However, beautiful and
bold ones should be declared in the flirting statement if and only if it
is probable that they are expected to result in prospective girlfriends.

Measurement of Useful Life of GF:
All the following factors shall be considered in determining the useful
life of a GF:
(a) Expected ?usage? of the girlfriend.
(b) Expected ?physical? wear and tear, which depends on ?operational?
factors such as the number of ?shifts? the GF is to
be used
(c) Technical or commercial obsolescence arising from changes in
fashion or ?service output? of the GF.
(d) ?Legal? or similar limits on the ?use? of the GF.

Derecognition:
The Girl Friend shall be derecognized:
1. at the end of the useful life of GF or flirting term whichever is
earlier, or
2. when no future physical benefits are expected from her use or
her disposal to your friend.

Disclosure:
The flirting statement shall disclose, for each ?class? of GF:
? age of GF
? complexion, face cut and ?other? necessary ?cuts?
? the useful life of each GF
? email address, residential address and mobile no. of each GF
? any ?special? benefits that may have been derived from the GF

uh....

2008-03-18T17:59:00.000+08:00
im confused... the way you act now makes me confused.

what I learned from business law and taxation today

2008-03-13T17:36:00.000+08:00
i will become a CPA
i will become a CPA
i will become a CPA.......nth

just a note

2008-03-12T19:38:00.000+08:00
quoted from Bo Sanchez:

Good intentions don't count, what we need are results.

WANTED: CREATIVES

2008-03-06T14:53:00.000+08:00
WANTED: CREATIVES PERSON

the youth ministry now requires and additional creatives person who is first and foremost creative, inherent artistic ability, and is knowledgeable of design and layout aesthetics or is willing to learn.

Proficiency in technical skill (Adobe photoshop, corel, illustrator) is most preferable. WILLING TO LEARN AND WORK for the ministry and under TIME PRESSURE.

for inquirires contact me.

- G

how convenient

2008-03-05T17:41:00.000+08:00
Senator Mar Roxas has become very convenient. thats what i call "odds in favor".

to those who are involved, you know what i'm talking about.

too soon?

2008-03-04T17:52:00.000+08:00
your becoming all too important to me right now.. as expected.
its just too soon. sooner than i anticipated.

thought provoked:
when i try my best, requite it, else loose me.

something more

2008-02-20T19:45:00.000+08:00
there is always something more than what you see.
there is always something more than what you know.
there is always something more than what you hear.
there is always something more than what you think.
there is always something more than what you perceive.
there is always something more than what you say.
there is always something more than what you do.
there is always something more than what you feel.
there is always something more than what you need.

in the end,
there is always something more than what you WANT.

there is always something more

Worth

2008-02-05T13:27:00.000+08:00
Make it worth my time.
Make it worth my effort.

Convince me that im not doing this for nothing.
That im not putting things to waste.

Im trying my best.

learn

2008-02-01T15:33:00.000+08:00
you all have the potential... and i've explained everything you all need to know.

now comes the choice of whether you want to learn from me...

Here's another

2008-01-22T13:57:00.000+08:00
another "name meaning" blogpost. but this is different in a sense that it shows the maning of your name along with its orientation and origin.

so here it goes

GINO = "Born Noble" Origin - Italian
ANTONIO = "Worthy of Praise" Origin - Spanish

see. haha, syempre yung last name di na kasama. :D

What "Gino Antonio Cruz" means...

2008-01-14T08:35:00.000+08:00
got this from biel. i do know better that these type of quizzes are no more than just a mere random interpretation of your name. simply put, they analyze the letters of your name and give corresponding assumptions based on those letters. each letter has a "personality trait" attached to it, such that when it apperas in your name, you see the so-called "meaning" of your name.

its just puzzling to see that the "hidden meaning" of my name is 95% accurate. how they do that? i dunno. maybe coincidence.

if you wanna try follow this link: http://www.blogthings.com/whatsyournameshiddenmeaningquiz/

What Gino Antonio Cruz Means:
You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.
You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.
Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.
You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.
You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.
You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.
At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily.
You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind.
A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.
You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.
You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience.
You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along.
But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge.

everything starts with "G"

2007-12-27T17:24:00.000+08:00

Use the 1st letter of your name to
answer each of the following. They
MUST be real places, names,
things. NOTHING made up! If you can't
think of anything, skip it. Try to use
different answers if the person in
front of you had the same 1st
initial.

And remember - you CAN'T use your name
for the boy/girl name question.

Your Name:
Gino Antonio

Famous Artist/Band/Musician
Guns and Roses (couldnt think of anything else)

A song:
God of Silence (bukas palad)

4 letter word:
Good (the first one in my mind)

Animal:
Giraffe

Country:
Germany

Boy Name:
Gerard

Girl Name:
Gaea

Occupation:
Gastroenterologist

Celebrity:
Britney Spears

Food:
Gambas

Something found in your kitchen:
Grater

Reason for Being Late:
Gastroenteritis (dunno if i spelled it right)

Post as "everything starts with __"

Im going to purgatory.

2007-12-16T18:21:00.000+08:00
The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!

Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Level | Score
Purgatory | Very High
Level 1 - Limbo | High
Level 2 | Low
Level 3 | Moderate
Level 4 | Low
Level 5 | High
Level 6 - The City of Dis | Very Low
Level 7 | Low
Level 8- the Malebolge | Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus | Very Low

Level descriptions: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-information.html
Take the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/dante-inferno-test.mv

wishlist

2007-11-29T05:13:00.000+08:00
christmas and birthday wishlist. some of them may seem impossible.

1. a powerful laptop with 1GB RAM or more, QUAD CORE. with a licensed windows xp.

2. a tungsten tx pda.

3. ipod classic 160gb.

4. an external and portable SATA bootable hard drive with 500GB worth of space.

5. my own GRAPHICS TABLET at least 8"x12" in size.

6. the following books:
a. Purpose driven ministry by rick warren
b. Purpose driven church by rick warren
c. Koinonia by fr. bart pastor
d. Heroic Leadership by Lowney
e. Novels by Gabriel Garcia Marquez
f. A collection of poems from Pablo Neruda
g. any John Maxwell book/s

7. my own Canon digital SLR

8. Rav 4 2005

9. A heat press with a matching high resolution printer!

sana bigay niyo sakin to. hehe

Allure

2007-11-27T16:55:00.000+08:00
a more refined version of an eralier vector. this time i smoothened out the shading, so its no longer a vector but more like a painting. tried to create a sense of realism.. but i failed to incorporate other colors to define the skin tone even more.

first time i tried this! phew, the smudge tool works wonders!

what i (we) do is not for free

2007-11-05T06:17:00.000+08:00
i copied this and decide to repost this in my multiply site. this is a reality that i am facing and this article pretty much explains why i need to get paid! lol.

DISCLAIMER: i did not write this, i just ripped this of from somebody elses multiply and reposted it here.

(START HERE)
I think it's time for non-artist folks to read this....Every day, there are more and more Craigs List posts seeking "artists" for everything from auto graphics to comic books to corporate logo designs. More people are finding themselves in need of some form of illustrative service.But what they're NOT doing, unfortunately, is realizing how rare someone with these particular talents can be.To those who are "seeking artists", let me ask you; How many people do you know, personally, with the talent and skill to perform the services you need? A dozen? Five? One? …none?More than likely, you don't know any. Otherwise, you wouldn't be posting on craigslist to find them.And this is not really a surprise.

In this country, there are almost twice as many neurosurgeons as there are professional illustrators. There are eleven times as many certified mechanics. There are SEVENTY times as many people in the IT field.So, given that they are less rare, and therefore less in demand, would it make sense to ask your mechanic to work on your car for free? Would you look him in the eye, with a straight face, and tell him that his compensation would be the ability to have his work shown to others as you drive down the street?Would you offer a neurosurgeon the "opportunity" to add your name to his resume as payment for removing that pesky tumor? (Maybe you could offer him "a few bucks" for "materials". What a deal!)Would you be able to seriously even CONSIDER offering your web hosting service the chance to have people see their work, by viewing your website, as their payment for hosting you?If you answered "yes" to ANY of the above, you're obviously insane. If you answered "no", then kudos to you for living in the real world.But then tell me… why would you think it is okay to live out the same, delusional, ridiculous fantasy when seeking someone whose abilities are even less in supply than these folks?Graphic artists, illustrators, painters, etc., are skilled tradesmen. As such, to consider them as, or deal with them as, anything less than professionals fully deserving of your respect is both insulting and a bad reflection on you as a sane, reasonable person. In short, it makes you look like a twit.

A few things you need to know;
1. It is NOT a "great opportunity" for an artist to have his work seen on your car/'zine/website/bedroom wall, etc. It IS a "great opportunity" for YOU to have their work there.

2. It is not clever to seek a "student" or "beginner" in an attempt to get work for free. It's ignorant and insulting. They may be "students", but that does not mean they don't deserve to be paid for their hard work. You were a "student" once, too. Would you have taken that job at McDonalds with no pay, because you were learning essential job skills for the real world? Yes, your proposition it JUST as stupid.

3. The chance to have their name on something that is going to be seen by other people, whether it's one or one million, is NOT a valid enticement. Neither is the right to add that work to their "portfolio". They get to do those things ANYWAY, after being paid as they should. It's not compensation. It's their right, and it's a given.

4. Stop thinking that you're giving them some great chance to work. Once they skip over your silly ad, as they should, the next ad is usually for someone who lives in the real world, and as such, will pay them. There are far more jobs needing these skills than there are people who possess these skills.

5. Students DO need "experience". But they do NOT need to get it by giving their work away. In fact, this does not even offer them the experience they need. Anyone who will not/can not pay them is obviously the type of person or business they should be ashamed to have on their resume anyway. Do you think professional contractors list the "experience" they got while nailing down a loose step at their grandmother's house when they were seventeen?If you your company or gig was worth listing as desired experience, it would be able to pay for the services it received. The only experience they will get doing free work for you is a lesson learned in what kinds of scrubs they should not lower themselves to deal with.

6. (This one is FOR the artists out there, please pay attention.) Some will ask you to "submit work for consideration". They may even be posing as some sort of "contest". These are almost always scams. They will take the work submitted by many artists seeking to win the "contest", or be "chosen" for the gig, and find what they like most. They will then usually have someone who works for them, or someone who works incredibly cheap because they have no originality or talent of their own, reproduce that same work, or even just make slight modifications to it, and claim it as their own. You will NOT be paid, you will NOT win the contest. The only people who win, here, are the underhanded folks who run these ads. This is speculative, or "spec", work. It's risky at best, and a complete scam at worst. I urge you to avoid it, completely.

So to artists/designers/illustrators looking for work, do everyone a favor, ESPECIALLY yourselves, and avoid people who do not intend to pay you. Whether they are "spec" gigs, or just some guy who wants a free mural on his living room walls. They need you. You do NOT need them. Say NO to free art.And for those who are looking for someone to do work for free…please wake up and join the real world. The only thing you're accomplishing is to insult those with the skills you need. Get a clue.If you agree with the above important information, please pass it along. The more people know, the faster we can correct this problem.

I picked this up from THE CREATIVE GENIUSIn the meantime, if you wish to get some work done, please remember that we get what we pay for... <---- ENDS HERE (COPY PASTE)

** in additional, even though i do this as a hobby or just happen to freelance; i exert a lot of effort and invest alot of time in doing these and that deserves the respect and compensation that is due.

2007-10-23T09:29:00.001+08:00
i see you still haven't learned anything since then... you know you can throw it back at me and blame me always. go do that. let's see what you get out of it.

i take responsibility and you don't. you quit. you hide. 'NUFF SAID.
who makes things a big deal now?

2007-10-23T09:28:00.000+08:00
Kung hindi ako, sino pa?
Kung hindi ngayon, kailan pa?

2007-08-08T23:44:00.000+08:00
what do you have to prove? what do you want to prove? funny, you prove something that is beyond you.. we must prove what we have, not what we want to have.

i no longer have anything to prove, to you or to anyone but myself. i only compete with the biggest competitor and that is myself. i surpass myself as an accomplishment, i push the boundary of new things, skills. i am a "natural" it is innate, i just have to prove to myself that i can, that it exists, than i am.

i believe the better question here is. to whom do you prove yourself to?

we can only attest so much.

2007-08-08T23:42:00.000+08:00
ok so our defense was more like a consultation. im happy, at least all the loopholes get filled up now. better that than final thesis.

i just pray that the audit firms we contact have the heart to accept our invitation, it shouldn't be too hard. i shouldn't be this hard.. lol.

wish us the best.

2007-08-08T23:38:00.000+08:00
it was pointless. nonetheless it happened. i'm not affected.

lets count, who had more stab wounds on the back... i'd have more... don't you agree?

you say people hate me now... well ask those people their opinions again, you would hear different thoughts now... and they will hurt your ears, and stab you to the chest.

i pity you. you have no idea of what really is going on.

** and i have a good idea of what is up...

2007-07-27T15:41:00.000+08:00
amidst the bombardment of requirements, thesis, case reviews... a sudden light! i passed my retake of MODMAN1, which means: 1) i am allowed to continue forward with my other modules 2)i no longer fear that i be kicked out of the program for failing twice 3)i don't need to take a validating exam; and lastly 4) my accumulation of failures has been redeemed.

today is an optimistic day. yesterday was the opposite. who knows what tomorrow would be?

si se pwede!

2007-07-25T21:33:00.001+08:00
was that you asking for pity or you being defensive?

funny. yun lang.

2007-07-17T22:45:00.001+08:00
if someone would ask me what is the single most important thing that requires your full attention and time, what would it be?

i would answer in one word:
THESIS

don't argue.

2007-07-17T22:34:00.000+08:00
i don't delete people i hate out of my life. i just put them in a quaint little folder called the "recycle bin". that just shows i don't harbor ill feelings against anyone (di ako nagtatanim ng galit), i just set them aside and leave it in that folder, to remain unused simply cause, the reason why we all put files in there, its useless.

wondering if your in it? go figure. you know who you are. and mind you, you aren't alone.

just in case you wanna be restored, give me a good reason to do so.

2007-07-09T22:30:00.000+08:00
i see how much you hate me now... hahaha... i just laugh at it.

things change, and PEOPLE change.. i guess you did, or at least the way i see you as a person has changed. i couldn't care less. i knew from the beginning that this would happen eventually, it was just a bit later than i expected.

nevertheless... i succumb to realizations here and there.

2007-06-16T20:21:00.000+08:00
this recently popped into my mind..

how does one live in a world where everyone sees that everything you do is wrong? recently, i can't help but feel i was born as a "mistake". i just feel that things aren't going as to what i had planned. nothing is. everything is just wrong. plain wrong.

i've had depression for since i was 13.
frustration at about the same age.
hate at 16.
suicidal tendencies since 13.

i have just had enough of people who soelely dictate how i should live my life. i have had enough of people who oppose my opinions. i have had enough of people of don't believe in me, of those who put me down.

i guess i am confused. afraid. temperamental.

2007-06-05T23:53:00.000+08:00
pahabol post.. and oh yes, biting your straw connotes sexual frustration.. hahahaha.

2007-06-05T22:57:00.001+08:00
drawing.

yun lang masasabi ko. ang pirates ay nanatiling isang poster na nakikita ko. hindi pa din siya pelikula.

2007-06-05T22:43:00.000+08:00
sometimes it can't be helped, sometimes people just end up so full of themselves. we take pride in things we know by ourselves, and oftentimes reject things we know through others. as a test, in the context of check and balance, which outweighs the other? or do they compliment?

the answer lies in choice. yes choice.

when we choose to be who we say we are as opposed to the choice of being what other people see, we become which we choose to believe and change to see that difference. we can be blinded by either choice and either belief. it is difficult. but how far shall we make choice to that belief?

simple. we choose to be who we believe we are. identity comes from within, no one can influence it. let what other people believe remain as what truly it is, just a measure.

if in truth, choice is what matters.

let me just quote again... being human, a man of choice, is not an excuse for you to make fucked up mistakes.

...in transitu

2007-06-05T22:38:00.000+08:00
with each passing moment and with each occasion, you reveal more of yourself.. take caution my friend, ultimately there is nothing we can hide.

i made a huge mistake a couple of days ago. it was totally rude. i do apologize if ever you read this. on that note, the only explanation i can say is i was wondering where you've been, coz i didn't recall you talking to me regarding a break, nor did anybody else for that matter notified me. we just have a job to do, and we would appreciate the presence and help. that said and done.